No pretending....

Thanks for reading my blog. It has been "therapy" for me and has helped me to see God at work in an otherwise "down" time in my life. As is so often true, life brings ups and downs (even to those who have not battled depression). I just have had a hard time finding my "new normal". Some things will never be the same, but some truths have been brought out into the open, and in those areas I see progress. It's hard work! The "me" I remember before all of this stuff - well, I can't seem to find her.

Confidence, self-esteem, organization, the ability to complete tasks, honesty, energy, typing skills, memory, my ability to parent - all have suffered. It seems I have to work much harder at everything. That gets old quick. I am not asking anyone to feel sorry for me, this is just my journey. Even as I type this, the Lord is bringing to mind the areas in my life I am thankful for. I am grateful for His provision for us financially during this difficult economy - J.R. is no longer able to work overtime, which has lowered our income significantly. YET, he still has a job - we have made it through so far without too much difficulty. We are remembering that there is room to cut back if you really try. I have had to face areas of my life where sin had taken control. Working through the consequences of that have been hard, but I am grateful for J.R.'s love and patience. If only I could show myself the same love and patience. Enough of that!

I am really enjoying our interim pastor, Rev. John Setchfield. He is truly a gift from God to our church family. His visitation ministry, preaching ministry and teaching ministry are really reaching the people. He isn't afraid to let us know that we need to be doing more, yet he has a gentle spirit that touches people, and they don't feel badly about his instruction. I watch him at the Wednesday night meal, he eats quickly, and then as he enjoys dessert, he moves from table to table, touching base with just about everyone. He spends a significant amount of time with our youth - they have begun to call him P.J. for Pastor John. They think he's cool. He is a gifted listener.

I continue to enjoy my work. Another gift of God! The people here have been wonderful to me. Well, break time is over, and I must get back to it!

God bless you in a special way today!